Making melodies

I’ve been frequenting the airwaves lately. Rx to jumpstart my morning, yahoo launchcast during the day and wrock to set the mood at night.

One time I woke up at about 3am to the sound of an all-too-familiar-i-wish-i-dont-get-affected tune… Through the fire. The song goes:
Through the fire
Through the limit
Through the wall
For a chance to be with you
I’d rather risk it all
……
For a chance of loving you
I’ll take it all the way
Right down through the wire
Even through the fire.

Fortunately, I’m too sleepy to have another ‘moment’ (this was our themesong fyi).

What’s playing now once made me cry… Angels brought me here. It was R and K’s friendster profile song. She’s the answer to your prayers and angels brought you together… So it’s all heaven sent and meant to be. C’mon Kenkay get over it already!

Haaaaay…..

And then I heard a remake of ‘kahit kailan’ a south border original. One of the sweetest, most umph-straight-to-the-heart song I’ve heard so far. Doesn’t it feel good to have someone who will promise:
Kahit kailan d kta iiwan
Kahit kailan d kta pbbyaan
….
Kung ikaw ay mawala sa piling ko
D na alam kung kakayanin pa kyang
Umibig pang muli
Khit na ano pang mangyyari
D maaaring ipagpalit
Ssamahan pa kta hgang sa huli.

Haaaaay again….

Sometimes when I want a quiet moment alone, I would listen to Broken Vow by Lara Fabian. The most haunting song I’ve ever heard in my lifetime.

 
And then I will remind myself of this one song that made me through it all… Healing by Deniece Williams which goes…
Cause Your love just keeps on healing me

No matter how I bruise

If I just trust You

Your love just keeps on healing me

One more cure

One more chance that wasn’t there before

In your arms

no pain can harm the way I’m feeling

Lord I know that Your love is healing.

And then I can sleep soundly again.

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Someone who’ll watch over me

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Amazing Zambales

Twas my first time to join a group tour from travel factor so I tagged Rochelle along… Still have that fear of walking into a new place with an entirely strange crowd.

I chose to join the Zambales tour just for the reason that the Dumaguete-Siquijor tour was already closed. Too much time spent thinking it over that when I finally decided to go it was too late. Since I was already on beach mode, I signed up for the next best place to go, Anawangin cove and Capones island. I’ve heard so much good things about the place but was so concerned about the camping and the no CR thing. Fortunately, the itinerary indicated no overnight stay at the island. It would’ve been a nice first-time-moment though.

So, that Friday we were set to attend Rhei’s shower party and CDS batch23’s graduation program before calling it a night. Arrived home at 11pm, woke up at 2am, on the way to Ortigas at 230am and off to Zambales on a chartered bus at 330 am. Settled at Canoe beach resort in Pundakit, a little freshening up and off we go.

Anawangin was our first stop. High as my expectations, the place did not fail me. It was a picture of pure, untouched beauty and tranquility, aside from the crowd. But can we blame them if they also want to experience the place? 

After finding a shady table for our stuff, we explored the place with our new found friends, Cez, Aimee, Rio and my co-Pinayshutter, Armi.

A few of us dared to climb the rocks to reach the top of a nearby hill with view of another cove on the other side.

Hunger always comes in the way.The moment I felt it I knew it was time to go back to camp. After lunch, we had a quick dip in the clear water.Some picture-taking with the group and then we proceeded to Capones island.

Due to rough waves, the boatmen did not recommend we go to the side of the lighthouse.So, we just settled on the nearest drop off. The waves were really rough compared to the stillness of Anawangin. There was hardly any spot with shade so we ended up cramped in one area. We left after about an hour. We tried to circle the island to see the lighthouse but waves were really battling with our vessel. A u-turn and we were off to go back to Pundakit.

The next day was spent at the town of San Felipe.It was a surfing trip this time.

A non-sporty person as I was, I chickened out just at the thought of surfing.I’ve always had the fear of plunging into the water, aka drowning.So I just content myself with clicking the cam to capture their momentous feats. 

Haaaay… this is such a beauty!

I’ve spent the last four years of my life exploring the southern parts (Vismin) of Pinas.It’s about time I see the sights up north.And I was surprised that this place is comparable, if not better than some famous destinations down south.Whaddayaknow, I might even find Kenkoy somewhere down the road up north.

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In the eyes of a worm

(SPC’s Mt. Pinatubo shoot)

February 21, 2009, 3am, Smart Tower Valero entrance

Gymno call na!Ibig sabihin klangan ko na gumising.Alas dos ng umaga na pala.I-snooze ko pa sana kaso may 2 text messages.Galing k Sir Rodel, papunta na daw sya sa bahay ko.Syet napa balikwas ako!Kung anu ano tuloy nadampot kong damit sabay takbo sa kanto kung san naka hazzard ung sv.Nagbaon na lang ako ng mouthwash para d naman dyahe.

Sa MSC3 kc kme nagpa sundo imbes na pumunta pa ng Smart Tower.Sandaling tambay lang sa EDSA at dumating na din sundo namen na ika nga ni Sir Jeng “JLC” Catangay at Sir Ronolfo “Bong” Feril e mukha daw bangbus… astig na astig, mega black tint at bumabayo ang sound system na puro today’s big hits ang karga.Kaso walang head rest at sikip ng leg room kaya d kme maka porma ng tulog.

Nag drop by lang sa Dau para sunduin si Jaybee at larga na patungong Capaz.Dami 4×4 na naka parada sa gilid ng kalsada.Maya maya pa ay naka rating na kme sa isang Korean spa kung san magsisimula ang lahat.Onting huddle at go go go na.

Wow!First time ko maka sakay ng 4×4 at rough road talaga ang daan.May ilang beses tumawid ng batis, may hump na pataas at meron din pababa (lubak na ga-batya).Nakaka tuwa talaga!Si Sir Bonngie parang foreigner na walang humpay sa pagkuha ng picture.Ung iba naman tamang sight seeing lang muna, mahirap na baka mahulog ang camera.Para syang disyerto na may damo, parang ung bagong attraction sa Dubai.

Naubos na ang excitement ko d pa din kme nakaka rating sa paanan.Cge lang,enjoy the ride and the view na lang.Thirty minutes din ata kme nag byahe na parang tinatahip na bigas.Nung maka rating sa paanan ayan na, kanya kanyang hanap na ng spot at subject para sa February theme.Onting picture picture, group hug este picture.Tara na, tama na yan!Eto na start na ng 1-hr trek.

Bato bato sa langit, nahulog ata lahat sa pinatubo.Cge lakad lang ng lakad, tanaw ng tanaw.Ingat lang at wag pagsabayin baka madulas o malaglag.Ilang SPC members din ang nabiktima.”Naku pre, ok lang ba camera mo?”D bale nang masugatan, gagaling din yan.Wag lang madale and cam at mahal yan.

Buti na lang medyo mahangin at paminsan minsan makulimlim kc tagaktak talaga ang pawis,Kahit naka rexona ka pa, babaskil ka pa din.Super nakaka uhaw pa.Are we there yet?Are we there yet?Syet pagod na pagod na ko!In fairness, maganda naman ang tanawin kaya masarap ang feeling.Lamig ng tubig sa batis!Wag lang iinumin at pinag sawsawan na yan ng paa ng mga nauna.Ano manong?!Kalahati pa lang to?!Teka teka upo muna kahit 5 minutes lang.Gosh!Anu ba tong pinasok ko?Kaya ko ba to?Sa tamad kong to?Kung anu ano pa pumasok sa isip ko na talaga namang d ata ako ready sa ganto.

Sandali pa at malapit na daw kme sa crater.Aakyat na lang sa hagdan na meyo sira na din.D naalagaan.Tamo nga naman umabot din matapos ang katakutakot na reklamo.

Aaaaaawwww!Ang ganda ng view!Sulit naman pala ang pagod ko.

Kanya kanyang hanap uli ng anggulo.Pagka tapos picturan ang lugar, pa picture naman dyan.Maging model naman paminsan minsan.Haaay, dis s d layp!Teka teka wag muna mag relax.D pa pala ito ang ultimate destination.May 200 steps pababa pa pala.At least pababa.Saka na isipin ung hirap paakyat.Kung pwede lang magpa dausdos na lang para madali pero baka buhay ko naman ang mapa dali kaya tiis na lang onti na lang naman.

Haaaaay!!!Ang ganda talaga ng view.Panalo!Parang beach resort nga lang sa dami ng tao.Sarap sana tumakbo at tumalon sa lake kaso 3rd day ko e at ang lalim pala.Kaya tampisaw na lang, picture dito, picture doon.Tutal eto naman talaga ang pinunta namen dito.

Nag muni muni ako habang nag papahinga. Isa to sa “places-to-go-to-before-you-die” list ko. Ang ganda ganda talaga dito.Kaya baket ako mag iisip lumabas ng bansa?Ilang beses na ba ko naaya na mag abroad na din.Pero ni passport d ko pag aksayahan ng panahon asikasuhin.Kc naman wala talaga ako balak umalis sa lugar na to.Kahit corrupt ang goyerno, rampant ang krimen, madaming naghihirap, binabaha ang halos lahat ng lugar… maganda pa din dito.Madaming bansa ang mahirap din, d lang halata, d lang naten nalalaman.. kc masyado tayo wallowing in our own situation, wala na tayo pakelam sa iba.Pero kung alam nyo lang, napaka swerte naten sa bansa naten.D man tayo mayaman sa pera, mayaman naman tayo sa ibang bagay, isa na dyan ang magagandang tanawin.

Gutom na kme.At un ang naging hudyat para bumalik na.Malayo pa ang lalakarin pero ok lang.Pag maganda ang nakikita mo, d mo napapansin ang pagod.Humiwalay ako sa grupo at nag wander mag isa.Sna wag muna uli pumutok ang Pinatubo kc gusto ko pa bumalik dito.Lalo na nung may nakita akong girl na kasama ung anak nya.Girl din mga 4-5 years old.Naalala ko si Kikay.Bago man lang masira ang lahat ng ito, dapat makita nya din ang ganda ng bansa nya.

Pagod na pagod pero masaya… Anak ng @#$%!Nakalimutan kong kumuha ng worm’s eye view!

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Day dreaming on a highway

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You changed my life

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That’s more like it!

In fairness tuwang tuwa naman ang Kikay…wag nyo na lang pansinin ung mga nuisance sa gilid…la ko time mag edit e.

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Emo na din si Kikay

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Lady in waiting

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Last kiss

“For most of the time,

you won’t remember the last time you kissed the one you love.

That’s because you never thought it would be the last.”
Huhuhuwaaah!:’(

Forwarded message from a friend, at a time that I’m still trying to pick up the pieces, still trying to mend a broken heart.  I wanted to cry my eyes out all over again…  And I thought I was strong

He was not just any man I lost.  He was my rainbow after all the rain.  He was everything I needed to live life all over again.  He was the closest to a happy ending…

And I’ve always thought she’d come in our way…  And I think I let her…  Coz I knew from the first time I saw them together that they had special feelings for each other.  It was a battle I know I’ll just lose.  She was his best friend.  And every time we had a falling-out he would always run to her.

I tried to fight for my territory but coz of our too complicated situation I always gave him reasons to run to her…  Until he gave up on me, on us.

The last time I saw him he was still mine.  The next I’ve heard of him he was letting me go.  And I ain’t surprised that he is now with his best friend.

Note: broken vow at the background while I was writing this entry adds to the drama :’( 

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But why???

Because my Friendster blog has been a headache since Christmas. It takes an hour to open my homepage.  It took forever to go to admin page.  And every time you save a new post or revision…Ayun mag-e-error! Grrrr!!!

Kaya just to satisfy my hankering for typing my worries and troubles away…I’ve decided to transfer my blog elsewhere.

http://kenkayandkikaymoments.wordpress.com

Happy reading!

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Color me happy

Pink was my wedding motif (kinasal na tlga ko sa maniwala kayo at hinde)

Yellow was the color of all baby stuff I bought when I was still preggy with Kikay.  Yellow will always remind me of her even if it is not her favorite color anymore.

Blue was my ex-husband’s first car, a glxi lancer, in a unique, very bachelor-like shade.  He had it since after graduation from his first job earnings.  We went places with this car.

Green will always be my favorite.

White chevy optra and Honda crv, we used to drive around Mindanao in them.

Red, white and pink roses of different varieties he used to send me even without any occasion.

Orange Branded (eto tlga ung brand nya) vintage couple shirt I bought for us.

Purple sky with streaks of blue and orange when we were in a beach somewhere in Visayas (the real thing looks better than this picture taken by a vga).  The sun was setting and we were lying on a hammock outside our cottage.  That was our best time together.

But what good are happy memories if they make you so sad we don’t want them anymore?

Just sharing with you some of my happy treasured memories before I erase them coz…

Yeah… maybe I don’t want them anymore coz I don’t want to be said anymore.

You see, my life was like a rainbow and my pot of gold is Kikay, and she is as colorful as roygbv.

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Ab@>-;-Cd

(revised by an angel)

Look at us.  Who would’ve thought we’ll reach this far?  I can’t even remember how it started.  But I know how this would end.  Just the best of friends.

If you only knew how much I admired you.  How glad I am to have you in my life.  How thankful I am for every little thing that’s so wonderful when I spend it with you.

One time you said you love me.  I brushed it off because I didn’t think you were serious.  And we didn’t bring up the issue ever again.  How can I?  Why won’t you?  Why would we?  Do we want to?

It’s a risk I dare not take.  For if I would, it’s either a 1 or 0, a make or break.  I would not risk what we have now to something I am not even sure will last or even work out.  For now I content myself with the thought that I am special to you as you are to me and you hold a very special place in my life and in my heart that no one else can ever replace.

Disclaimer:  Ipinapaalala ko lang po na hindi lahat ng naka post sa category na ito ay istorya ng buhay ko.  Ang ilan po dito ay special request lang ng mga friendsters ko kc d nila masabi in their own words.  Heheheh!  Bato bato sa langit ang tamaan wag magalit..smile na lang jn!

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Moy and Eric

(a short love story)

After class there he was waiting for me, Moy.  Everyday he accompanies me home.  He lived nearby and we’ve been friends since first year.

And then there was Eric, my classmate who was always there for me.  Though he never mentioned anything about his feelings towards me, I know that he liked me, from the way he looked at me, the way he smiled when he sees me and the way has taken cared of me.  But it will all change when he sees me with Moy everyday after class.  He leaves when he knew I’m already with Moy.

One time Moy got sick.  Eric asked if he can accompany me home.  I said yes but I had to pass by Moy’s house to bring him some fruits.  The ride was sweet.

Moy was resting in his bed when we arrived.  He had the flu and was advised to take a week off from school.  After some hi’s, hello’s and get-well-soon conversation, I kissed his forehead and hugged him tight to say goodbye.  Then we headed home.

The whole week Eric accompanied me home.  There were a few times that I felt his hands brush through mine as if he wanted to hold them.  There were also times that I had to look away so he would not notice that I was staring at him for a long time.  I am in awe at this person beside me.

Moy was back and so was our routine.  I love Moy, as a friend, as a brother.  He knew that but he still makes me want to change my mind.

“Moy, I’m starting to like someone from class”

“Oh, is it Eric?”

“Umm… yeah. He’s nice to me.”

“I can see that.”

“Are you ok with that?”

“You’re asking me if I’m ok with you and Eric being together?”

“Yeah. I just want you to know that I like him very much but I still love you..coz you’re my best friend..”

“Yeah sure. No problem with that… I just hope he’ll take care of you more than what I can do.”

“Thanks, Moy!”

Paskuhan came and we were all at the field.  Eric was beside me all the time.  Then came the fireworks.  Between the noise and cheer around us Eric whispered “I love you.”  I didn’t answer back but I held his hand and locked it in mine.  We were so happy.

After the place had cleared we walked towards the benches still hand in hand.  I looked into his eyes, bright and sparkling…

“I love you to, Eric.”

“I’m happy you do.”

Moy was the first to know about us.  He said he was happy for us and he will miss our daily routine.  I will miss him too.

Eric was the perfect partner and I couldn’t be any happier.  Life seemed so perfect…

And then I woke up.

It was all just a dream… a fantasy.  And as I slowly open my eyes I see all the things around me that is my reality.. and the person sleeping beside me… Moy.

After graduation Eric had to work abroad to support his family.  It was a long distance relationship for a few years until Eric became lonely and found happiness some place else.  I was heartbroken then and Moy was there.  Call it love on the rebound but I know I had that love for Moy ever since we were friends… and he was just waiting for me everyday and this time he took me home.

Disclaimer:  I claim this story as not mine and not of any of my friends’ or acquaintance’s.  Pardon my story-telling technique for I’m not a writer, just a hopeless romantic, dreamy, sentimental person with an austere imagination and a pocketful of time.

Add comment December 31, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

Realizations

1. I’ve come to realize that my butt: is a bit big for my built

2. I’ve come to realize that if I love someone: I should not lose myself

3. I’ve come to realize that I need: a big hug more than anything else right now

5. I’ve come to realize that I’ve lost: my appetite for intimacy

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when: I am being pushed around, dominated and controlled

7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk: someone must’ve placed gin on my drink coz I don’t drink alcohol

8. I’ve come to realize that money: is like a slip of the tongue… you’ve let it out before even thinking it over

9. I’ve come to realize that my mother: keeps our family together

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll probably always be: mababaw ang kaligayahan pero malalim ang pinanggalingan

11. I’ve come to realize that I have a crush on: a lot of guys some of whom are not worth crushing on… even my friends don’t get it.

12. I’ve come to realize that the last time I cried was: just to cleanse my eyes…tamaan na ng kidlat ang sinungaling…arikupu!

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone: is like my ex, that is, too good to be true (ooops makakarating din to sa kinauukulan!Bgay nga pala nya ung fon ko )

14. I’ve come to realize that when I wake up in the morning: I push myself to go to work by thinking of something worth looking forward to… I can’t think of anything most of the time.

15. I’ve come to realize that before I go to sleep at night: I always think and still live on the past

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about: the past heheheh

17. I’ve come to realize that babies: are better off inside the tummy heheheh..sus ang hirap talaga mag alaga ng makukulit na bata!

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on blogging: it’s either I’ll rave about Kikay or rant about my previous relationships (no naming names na)

19. I’ve come to realize that today I will: do things that will make me happy

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight I will: try not to think about the pest este the past…  you know what?I just ate my words!

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow I will: still do things that will make me happy

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to: live a simple life preferably near a beach

23. I’ve come to realize that who is most likely to repost this is: just like what Happykoko wrote… “non-originals”.I think people who have something to say and want to be heard, aka KSP’s will repost this

24. I’ve come to realize relationships: will last as long as both of you are in it

25. I’ve come to realize love: looks better in the movies, in books and in cartoons

26. I’ve come to realize my best guy friend/s: don’t see me as someone they would want for a girlfriend

27. I’ve come to realize my best girl friend/s: love me and hate me for my honesty (d ba Mash?)

28. I’ve come to realize food: is one of my indulgence

29. I’ve come to realize that when I’m a girlfriend: I’m better off as a friend

30. I’ve come to realize girls and boys: both do fool around

31. I’ve come to realize over the summer: that I will never ran out of beaches to go to

32. I’ve come to realize heartbreak: is one step closer to finding your true love… yes positive thinker

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A few of my favorite things

(also in Luanne Rice novels)

• Family
• Love
• Beach
• Country
• Children
• Friendly neighborhood
• Simple joys
• Laid back atmosphere
• Pants and shirt
• Scent of cinnamon
• Mismatched cups and saucer
• Pillows and blankets
• Photos
• Old love songs
• Vintage charms
• Rose gardens
• Magic spells
• Myths
• Birds
• Butterflies
• Light house
• Big rustic houses
• Pick up trucks
• Bicycle
• Picnic
• Read a good book
• Stroll along the beach
• Quick dip
• A walk in the park
• Open fields
• Open skies
• Star gazing
• Sailing
• Sweet dreams
• Man of your dreams
• Best friends
• Sisterhood
• Summer
• Sunset

And so you see, I know completely where I want to be, I just don’t know if I can ever get there.

Maybe not in this lifetime.

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2008 is made of these

-happy year ahead but start of petty arguments that led to bigger issues

-first valentine in nine years without someone special to celebrate it with

-unused ticket to Davao to celebrate his birthday, spent many times deciding whether to go or not to go….I opted not to go

-tried to save it with Batanes Photo Safari, our first photo shoot but last out of town trip together

-his US trips, the last one was when I last saw and argued with him

-my birthday same month that the annual performance appraisal results came out and I got promoted but work still didn’t seem desirable

-found new reasons to smile and be always presentable… it’s when someone new caught my eye

-heard about his “rising from the ashes and angels brought me here” thing

-found a new reason to look forward to go to work… someone caught my eye again and in some way eased the depression era

-lost the reason to look forward to go to work… it must’ve been dust that caught my eye (just a small particle with no use and quickly goes away with a gust… Translate to someone with no use and sense who was just a distraction ahahahah… Bad Kenkay!)

-lost, found and realized the importance of true friends in my life.They may be few but they are all well-chosen

-and then there were chocolates,perfumes,backpacks,receipts (buzzer beater deadlines with Finance and Treasury), DTRs, exams, practice areas, SIGE workshops, Ericsson and Huawei HSPA trainings(pasan ko ang daigdig part), a little bit of Nokia trainings (kaya wala pang planner hgang ngayon e),  transmission equipment trainings (dami giveaways), uzzap, trutap, me na me, blogging, EBs, photoshoots, Tagaytay, Talisay, Dakak, Palawan, Golden Sunset, Antipolo, Dansalan, Sucat, Pasig, Greenhills, Quiapo, Intramuros, Roxas Blvd, Mall of Asia, Meralco Theater, kiddie parties, weddings, ballet recital, costume parties, lunchouts, breakouts, early dinners, McDonalds, Jollibee, Yellow Cab (holdapin si JB at Ramil), Starbucks (first time ni Rochelle), Bubba Gump (making new memories to forget the old ones), Rockefeller, The Good Earth, Krispy Kreme, Mexicalli, Tokyo Tokyo, Chef d’ Angelo, Banana Leaf, Red Crab, Italianni’s, La Grotta, 12/F, 5/F, G/F Sucat among other things.

This year has been a period of so many changes.

Less out of town trips but more talking with sense (ummmm, I still don’t get it though),

Less happiness in lovelife but more fulfillment as a mother,

Less things you loved doing to make work not feel like work but more things you have to do to make you a person of more value to the organization.

What lies ahead in the next years to come is like a YouTuber… that is just waiting to be discovered.

For now I just want to thank all the people who made this year as eventful as the previous ones.

To my colleagues and officemates in Smart, ex-Smart and PLDT,

To my high school and college classmates,

To my photogroupmates and online buddies,

To my family and relatives,

My friends and special someones (ahihihihih!!!)…

Thank you and looking forward to being with you again in the next years to come.

Happy holidays everyone!

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The most perfect gift

Got off from work early (so what’s new?!) last Tuesday and passed by SM San Lazaro for some errands.Nagmamadali pa ko umuwi kc I still had to wrap Kikay’s gifts for her teachers and kuyas for Wednesday’s Christmas party.Bought the gifts last Monday at Bench.Buti na lang they had ready-made paper pouches for free kaya I got enough for each gift.Nag avail pa nga ko ng loyalty card nila para lang makahirit ng extra paper pouch, kahit d naman ako mahilig mamili dun.

Pag dating ko sa bahay, bago pa man mag late dinner, pinakuha ko na k Kikay ung gifts para maibalot ko na.Tawa ng tawa si Lola kc may isusumbong daw sken.Takbo si Kikay para takpan ang bibig ni Lola, wag daw sabihin sken.

Kala ko kung ano na nangyari sa gifts!Naisip ko baka nabasag, natapon, ginamit o pinag laruan ni Kikay.Naku san ako kukuha ng kapalit nun?!! Sarado na ang mall!!! D naman ako pwede mag leave kinabukasan kc may NPSD strat plan sa antipolo.Hala anong gagawin ko?!!Taranta naman agad si Kenkay!

Nung umakyat na si Kikay para kunin ung gifts, kwinento sken ni Lola na nakita nya nung hapon na naka bukas ang ilaw sa kwarto namen ni Kikay.Sumilip sya at nakita na nagbabalot ng gifts si Kikay gamit ung paper pouch, kinuha pa nya ung tape dispenser sa cabinet ni Lola, at nag lagay pa sya ng gift tag gamit ung likod ng pinag gupit gupit na retaso ng lumang gift wrapper.Nahihiya sya ipakita sken kc papagalitan ko daw sya.

Pero nung nakita ko ung ginawa nyatuwang tuwa talaga ko.Effort kung effort.Kahit mejo baliko ang tiklop at pagka lagay ng tape, d maayos pagkaka gupit sa gift tag, proud ako sa ginawa nya.Big girl na talaga ang Kikay ko!Naisip ko dadating ang araw na maliligo na din sya mag isa nya, magbibihis, maghahanda ng gamit at baon nya sa school, gagawa ng assignment na mag isa.Ang fear ko lang baka masyado na sya maging independent d na nya ko pansinin

Nega naman!Sabi nga ni Bry… Chill Kenkay!

I’m so proud of my Kikay talaga!She’s growing up much like the way I wanted her to be.Sana lang she also likes it that way and she’s happy with what she is and what she has (mejo suplada nga lang, ganun talaga pag artistahin..snobbish heheheh!)

Nobody’s perfect but for me… Kikay is God’s most perfect gift to Kenkay.

Add comment December 21, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

Of past and future plans

Eto na naman ako at mage-emote…

pwede nyo naman ignore kung ayaw nyo basahin

pagbigyan nyo na ko…kasama lang to sa healing process ko

Somebody asked me of my plans…

I told him, due to the turn of events lately, I am still in the process of rebuilding my plans for Kikay and I.

Just last year I had everything planned in mind.  From the house where we would live, the school where Kikay would go to, the car that I would drive, the places we will visit, to the things we’ll be doing for the next five years.  It was so perfect on my mind.  Although there was still one BIG STUMBLING BLOCK to conquer, I was so determined to do something about it in the next couple of years.

Unfortunately, things didn’t turn out well for us.  All those dreams we had made remained just that…a dream.  There’s no more use in blaming or pointing fingers.  Regret was also futile.

I kept my sorrow private only to close friends.  I didn’t want people to see that I was at my weakest and lowest point.  I always got sick because of depression and anxiety.

It was an effort to put up a happy face and a hearty laugh every time you need to.    It was hard to hold a tear even though your heart is breaking.  It was hard to show you are strong even though it really aches inside.

Support came in all forms and sizes…from simple text messages, to little gifts and words of encouragement.  People from everywhere embraced me with love, care and support.  I feel so blessed to have such wonderful people around me.  I call them family and friends.

After months in negativity, I have found the answer to my questions.  To accept what God has given me and look forward to a life He has in store for us.  We may have a hard time looking for another person who can surpass what Russ had been to us but God will give us someone we deserve and who deserves us as well.  We just have to trust Him on this one heheheh

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December 21, 2012

http://showbizandstyle.inquirer.net/lifestyle/lifestyle/view/20081202-175536/Earth-changes-based-on-Mayan-prophecies

Excerpts:

“The Mayan prophecy does not say nor does it imply that it would be the end of the world. But certain unprecedented changes would take place on planet Earth that will affect all its inhabitants. Planet Earth is on the last 5,126 years of its present cycle which, according to the Mayan calendar, began on Aug. 13, 3114 BC and will end on Dec. 21, 2012.”

According to a Mayan priest, “The Earth will not end on Dec. 21, 2012. It will be transformed.”

Ang dami pang sinabi sa article na kung anu anong churvaloo pero eto lang mga naisip ko:

-klangan na ayusin ang buhay

-klangan mag handa physically, emotionally, financially at spiritually

-live every day to the fullest — walang……. tulugan!

-enjoy every moment of your life — weeeeeh!

-tell all the people you love that you love them — I love you friendsters! Mwah! :-*

-make the most out of every opportunity

-at higit sa lahat…klangan ko na mahanap si Kenkoy bago mag December 21, 2012!

Add comment December 5, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

In sickness and in dreams

Kikay fell sick since last Monday night so I had to take her to Medocare for check-up the next morning (kaya emergency leave si Kenkay last Tuesday..dami tuloy na pending na trabaho at mga usapang kita kita… Heheheh snsya na I have priorities!).

Her pedia said it was just colds with drip causing her cough. I forgot what she said about the fever but I remember she told me to buy a thermometer because it is a need especially if you have children (children ba kamo? Madami kme nyan!).

Ang mahal kaya ng digital thermometer noh! E d ba bawal na ung may mercury? Kaya pisngi lang pang gauge namen kung may sinat o wala. Pag mainit tempra agad every 4 hours for 24 hours.

Anyway, Kikay’s Papa texted that he would drop by if he has time (he already made other plans na daw e). Later that night, when her Papa did not arrive KIkay texted her Papa…

Kikay: Papa big bad wolf

(Sorry ha, no offense pero natawa talaga ko… uuuuuy may mga magsusumbong nito!!!)

In fairness, her Papa called naman to check on her.

The next day, Wednesday, still no Papa arrived…Kikay texted again…

Kikay: Papa big bad wolf

When her Papa called sabihin ko daw na tulog na sya (pinag sinungaling pa talaga ko!) may tampo factor na kc sya.

The next day, Thursday, late na ko nakauwi kc naaya ng mga taga PLDT. ‘Lo and behold dinatnan ko sa bahay ang Papa nya. Symepre tuwang tuwa ang Kikay. Kahit paos na paos dahil sa sipon at ubo chika to the max pa din sila.

Dahil ilang araw na puyat, plakda si Kenkay. D ko na namalayan umalis Papa ni Kikay.

Nagising na lang ako in the middle of the night kc nagsalita na naman si Kikay habang tulog…

Kikay: Papa bakit umuwi ka na?! D ba sabi ko wag ka na uuwi?!

Ummmm…..

Kenkay: Kikay, sorry but I told him to leave…..5 years ago.

Add comment December 4, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

Getting to know Kikay

Name:

Rianne Kyla Benitez Escoto

Birthdate:

July 5, 2003 (nakakalimutan ko pa yan minsan lalo na pag impromptu question)

Birthplace:

Chinese General Hospital, Manila

Sign:

Cancer (the most caring people you’ll meet)

Favorite Color:

as of the moment…Pink, Purple, Light Blue, Rainbow (except Green and Yellow na mga favorite colors ni Kenkay…pang asar talaga sya e…ung mga gusto ko ayaw nya), Gray, we both dislike Black

Favorite Food:

Daing, Danggit and anything dried (kahit sa school nagbabaon yan ng kanin at daing), Palabok, Burger Steak, French fries, Twin Popsies, Frozen jelly-ace, mint chocolate (Cadburry Peppermint), mango juice (nasanay k Russ)

Favorite Cartoon Character

Ariel (ung sirena, d ung ka partner ni Maverick…Edwin “Bading” Francisco ngayon alam mo na), Belle (Beauty and the Beast), Jasmin (Aladdin), Cinderella, Snow White, Aurora … feeling nya kc princess din sya… d nya alam pinag lihi ko sya k Mahal (chimpri naman lab ku chi Jimbuy!)

Favorite Attire:

Skirt, sexy blouses, dress, high-heeled shoes (bata pa lang maarte na talaga to e..ewan ko ba san nagmana to)

Favorite expression:

Ano ka ba Mama hellow!!! (with matching rolling of the eyes at irap…sabi sa u maarte talaga to e)

Favorite advise for Kenkay:

Mama ako na ang pipili ng boypren mo ha!  Pag d mo ko sinunod d na kita lab! Hmp! (Ay katakut!) :-S

Add comment December 2, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

About laziness and selfishness

During one of our late-night-not-so-quality-time talks…

Kikay:               Mama, milk po please po.

Kenkay:            Kaw na magtimpla.   D ba big girl ka na?

Ang totoo, busying busy si Kenkay makipag text sa kung sinong poncho pilato.

Kikay:               Kaw na Mama please!

Kenkay:            Kaw na, ‘te!  Cge na big girl ka na e! (trying to make uto pa)

Kikay:               (sobbing) D mo na ko inaalagaan!  Puro na lang puso mo iniintindi mo!!!

Kenkay:            ……….

Are you sure you’re just 5 years old?!  You sounded more like your grandmother!

Yah yah yah kasalanan ko na heheheh!  Sometimes I get so wrapped up in my “own world” that I almost forgot that my world should have been “Kikay.”

Lesson learned J

“The best inheritance a parent can give to his children is a few minutes of their time each day.” - M. Grundler quotes

“Children are the anchors that hold a mother to life” - Sophocles quotes

Add comment December 1, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

SPC’s First Model Shoot

heheheheh!!! :)  ano sali kayo?! nagbayad pa kme ng tig-P100 para jn ha!
Photo by RRanjo

real model pics will be posted within the next 2 weeks

Add comment December 1, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

About crushes and school stuff

One time while I was washing Kikay…

Kikay:               Mama may bago ko crush!

Kenkay:            Sino?

Kikay:               Si Carl!

Carl used to give Kikay red heart drawings a couple of times last semester bcoz he has a crush on her sabi nya.  I saw these drawings in her bag when I check at night.  It’s kinda cute and sweet.  I’m not sure if he was also the one who gives her food for recess.  But I told her not to accept the drawings anymore coz I don’t want her to have a crush on anybody and that I should be the only one she loves.

Kikay:               Three ang may crush sken sa school, Mama.  Si Angelo, si Isaac at si Carl.

Kenkay:            Pano mo naman nalalaman?

Kikay:               Nadidinig ko sabi nila.  Minsan pinupuntahan ako sa table ko para i-kiss pero tinutulak ko palayo.

Kenkay:            Puro ka na lang crush ha!  Baka d ka na nag aaral sa school puro crush ang inatupag mo dun?

Kikay:               Siguro kaya ayaw mo na may crush ako kc naiinggit ka kc dami may crush sken…sa u wala!

Kenkay:            ……………….

La ko masabi!  Ayus ka talaga!  Manang-mana ka sa nanay mo…TACTLESS!  Beep beep naman ‘neng!  Kainis ka naman e!  Klngan pa talaga sabihin un?!

Add comment November 30, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

This is my now

There was a time I packed my dreams away.
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.

There was a time when I was so afraid.
I thought I’d reached the end,
But baby that was then
I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can’t believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I have to decide,
Was I gonna play it safe.
Or look somewhere deep in side,
Try to turn the tide,
And find the strength to take that step of faith.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can’t believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

And I have the courage like never before, yeah.
I’ve settled for less now I’m ready for more,
Ready for more.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around I can’t believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I’m living in the moment
I look around I can’t believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.
This is my now.

Emp#6032, thanks for this!  Big help

Add comment November 30, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

Logically incorrect

Being alone does not mean loneliness, but being with someone knowing that he will never be yours is.

But isn’t it that true love is when you love the person without expecting that he will love you back? 

Does that mean that true love = loneliness?

Hmmm….

I think i need another argument but in the meantime…

Let’s just say that true love is hard to find kaya let’s wait for it to find us na lang…

d ba Mash?! Jones?!

Heheheh! Peace!

O cge na isali nyo na din ako jn

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Faith, Hope and Love

I’ve been through a lot of loving, losing, letting go and picking up the pieces and moving on.

But I never lost faith in love.

I still think that things happen for a reason.

And that God makes you experience these trials to make you the person He wants you to be.

And that He has plans for you more blissful than your earthly desires.

I’ve since kept my wedding ring locked in the drawer but I always wear my gold necklace with two pendants,

a cross for Faith

a heart for Love

I’m not losing hope…

I just don’t know how it looks like.

PM me for suggestions.

Add comment November 30, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

Of songs and the story behind

From now on

(You’re only someone that I used to love)

-Take a little time baby see the butterflies colors.  Listen to the birds that were sent to sing for me and you.  Can you feel me?  This is such a wonderful place to be.  Even if there is pain now everything will be alright.  For as long as the world still turns there will be night and day.  Can you hear me?  There’s a rainbow always after the rain.

-I’ve been in love a time or two.  I’ve seen the world but not with you.  I wanna fly and spread my wings.  Don’t wanna cry, I wanna feel.  I wanna live and take a chance.  I’m not afraid to love again.  I wanna fall, fall for you.  And I want you to fall for me too.

- Just one look and I knew you would make everything clear.  Make all the clouds disappear.  You’re better than all the rest.  Who do I love the best?  Don’t you know, don’t you know?  You’ve got it all over him.  You got me over him.  Honey it’s true.  There’s just you, you must have been heaven sent hearing me call you were out on a limb.  And you’re all that he’s not, just look what I’ve got.  Cause you’ve got it all over him.

-Through the fire, through the limit, through the wall.  For a chance to be with you I’ll gladly risk it all.  Through the fire, through whatever come what may.  For a chance of loving you I’ll take it all the way.  Right down through the wire, even through the fire.

-You were my strength when I was weak.  You were my voice when I couldn’t speak.  You were my eyes when I couldn’t see.  You saw the best there was in me.  Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach.  You gave me faith coz you believed.  I’m everything I am because you loved me.

-Saving forever for you, baby. You are the only one I’ll ever give forever to. Love for a lifetime won’t do, baby.  Wanna always stay together so I’m saving forever for you.

-Everything that we’ve been through before now it means so much more.  I tried to run from your side but each place I hide only reminds me of you.  When I turn out all the lights even the night it only reminds me of you.

-it must have been love, but it’s over now.  It must have been good, but I lost it somehow.  It must have been love, but it’s over now.  It was all that I wanted; now I’m living without.

-Could’ve been so beautiful.  Could’ve been so right.  Could’ve been my lover every day of my life.  Could’ve been so beautiful.  Could’ve been so right.  Ill never hold what could’ve been on a cold and lonely night.

-I’ll let you go, I’ll let you fly.  Now that I know I’m asking why.  I’ll let you go now that I’ve found a way to keep somehow, more than a broken vow.  I close my eyes and dream of you and I and then I realize there’s more to life than only bitterness and lies.  I close my eyes.

-One last cry before I leave it all behind.  I gotta put you out of my mind for the very last time, been living a lie.  I know I gotta be strong cause around me life goes on and on and on.

-Cause your love just keeps on healing me.  No matter how I bruise if I just trust you, your love just keeps on healing me.  One more clue, one more chance that wasn’t there before.  In your arms no pain can harm the way I’m feeling.  Lord, I know that your love is healing.

Add comment November 28, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

The powers of Remote Admin

Away from you there is no music,

There is no sunlight,

The world is gray.

Away from you

The clocks are frozen,

And time’s a traveler

Who’s lost his way.

I’m half alive

Until the moment

The door swings open

and you walk through,

Now my soul is afloat

On a melody of music

That I could feel such joy

I never knew.

And so you see

Why I can never be

Away from you.

A note on my desktop last 01-26-2006 

Add comment November 27, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

What’s in your inbox?

Ai lyk wat Elmo sed, “me luv my blanky n d hul world, me sad wn my blanky go awy, but f u lus ur blanky, me giv my blanky jz 4 u, coz dats hw much me care 4 u.” (Gina)

Being with someone doesn’t guarantee happiness..Finding your other half does. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve been alone, how long you’ve hoped, or how long you’ve waited.  There’s no such thing as a perfect love story.  Heartaches will always be a part of loving.  But remember, though not perfect, if that love is meant for you, it will stick with you ‘til the end.  No matter how tough it gets, no matter how long..Far from perfect..but real. (Russ)

Minsan mas espesyal ang luha kaysa ngiti.. kc kahit cno pwede mo ngitian pero ang luha..tutulo lang sa taong d mo kayang iwan.. (Daniel)

Wen luv s real, it defies all risons..wen luv s true, it ignores all pains..wen luv s great, it waits..it persists..and lingers forever. (Edwin)

Treat ur lyf lyk d sea, ur heart as d shore and frends as d waves.  It doesn’t matter hw many waves r der..wat matters s w/c 1 touches d shore. (Mash)

Peyton once said, “Ders nothing wrong w/ believing in fairytales..bcoz in d end, we ol liv happily evr aftr.”  However, she 4got  1 impt detail..not evry1 we fall inluv w/ means it’s a ‘happily evr aftr’ story..most of d tym its jus..once upon a tym. (Russ)

God sumtyms pushes us out of r comfortable lives 2 teach us 2 trust Him.  We may fall a lilt but He doesn’t let us hit d ground. (Namsy)

A butrfly ws inluv w/ a wyt rose. D wyt rose told hm dt wen she turns red dats d only tym she’l luv hm.  d butrfly didn’t fly, instead he cut his body & spread his blood on d rose.  D rose turned red & fell inluv w/ d butrfly.  But d butrfly ws no longer alive.  ‘love sacrifices’ r sumtyms useless esp f dat sum1 doesn’t know how 2 appreciate.  Dey’l com 2 realyz impt things wen its olredi 2 late. (Kate)

If u see people without a smile today, give them one of yours J it might be the only sunshine they’ll see all day. So smile and be a blessing. (Steve)

Misunderstood..

He told me that I was just another face in the crowd.

So I told him that he was just another jerk up the street.

Maybe it was my fault to interrupt his words, because while I was walking away I heard him say..

“another face in the crowd..that managed to take my breath away..”

While I found myself saying..

“another jerk up the street..that I’d die to live next to..” (My)

Oprah says “Leaving a love you’ve suddenly outgrown can be heartbreaking, but it also shows you’re strong enough to walk away from a relationship that no longer makes you happy.. Moving out of your comfort zone can be downright scary, but it also proves just how brave you are to take on the unknown.. Stronger, braver, wiser.. You always do a little growing up every time you do a little letting go.” (Tonipet)

And the best text message I received so far…

Mama    ilbyu

(Kikay)

Add comment November 27, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

Why Kenkay got into photography

There is really no special story to it…

I just tend to forget things, people and events easily.

Pictures will remind me of at least how it looked like and that it happened.

It’s something I know I can do something about but I’d rather not.

So if I take your picture or grab them from your social networking sites don’t think I’m a stalker.

I just want to remember you longer.

Add comment November 27, 2008 kenkayandkikaymoments

Of gifts and how much they meant to me

Mobile phone – coz he knew Kenkay can’t afford one and she’s at wits’ end with her “amazing” phone, and then an extra phone exclusive for their conversation, and then it’s time to upgrade to a HSDPA phone.

Sewing machine – unusual! coz off the rack clothes don’t fit Kenkay so she has to learn how to sew

Liz Claiborne luggage – in avocado green kaya Kenkay super loved it.  Unfortunately her traveling days are so over.

Snorkeling set with flippers – beach bummer si Kenkay

HP iPaq – still uso at that time.  coz he thought it was necessary to bring work files when Kenkay travels without a laptop.  Kikay’s toy for now and tempo storage of Kenkay’s notes and handy office files, very helpful.

Dslr Camera bag, extra battery, SD card, UV filter – coz he wanted Kenkay to pursue her hobby

Jim Thompson bag – coz he knew Kenkay liked big bags and colorful stuff.  striped yellow, orange, green, violet and blue circles.  At first Kenkay thought it was only bagay during summer but she loved everything about it so it became her favorite.

Food supplements – coz he knew Kenkay needed that.

Swatch watch – coz he did not knew that Kenkay is never really into watches but she tried to use it at times.  It’s still there in the drawer.

Pearl earrings – coz he did not knew that Kenkay thinks pearls are tears but she always wears it…kaya pala the tears are always there…

White roses – coz he knew it was “the sign” Kenkay was looking for.

Nina Live CD – it includes Through the Fire, I Love You Goodbye and the bonus track… I Don’t Wanna Be Your Friend….really….Kenkay Doesn’t Wanna Be Your Friend!

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Of perfumes and body mists

Perry Ellis Reserve, my ex-husband gave it to me and reserved I will be until I get an annulment…peace college classmates!

Victoria’s Secret Garden Sweet Temptation smells like dalaga.  Kahit sa perfume man lang feeling ko dalaga ako heheheh!  At sino pa ang laging nagbibigay nito?  E d ang aking fellow dalaga na si Mareng Jones.

Victoria’s Secret My Desire…this was actually given to Kikay.  Baket kaya d sken binigay?  D ako desirable sa kanya?  Gagu un a!

Victoria’s Secret Love Spell…the one who gave this to me must have really cast a spell on me coz I can’t forget him inspite of… o tama na emote!

Victoria’s Secret Endless Love… haaaay the best scent I have ever sniffed.  Smells like angels from heaven.  Un nga lang it didn’t lived up to its name…sinabing tama na emote e!

J.Lo Live and lived to the fullest we did.  Until…

Hephep…

Hooray!!!

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On who is more beautiful

It was a Saturday afternoon while I was preparing for Crispy’s wedding.

I dressed Kikay in her casual attire of cropped pants, pink shirt and pink ballet flats since she will just stay at her Papa’s house, while I was dressed in a printed green cocktail dress, just right for a semi-formal event.

Kikay:                      Ate Yeye, nakaka inis si Mama!

Ate Yeye:               Baket naman?

Kikay:                      E kc mas maganda sya sken ngayon e!

Children and drunks always speak the truth.  – Anonymous

Ahem ahem ahem… heheheheh!!! JJJ

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Tonie’s Centipede Story

(a text message from Dave Azurin)

Read it with feelings.

Mom Centipede:       Ano ba ang kupad mo naman, anak!  Kanina pa kita inuutusan, di ka pa din nakaka alis?!

Baby Centipede:      Mommy naman!  Nag tsi-tsinelas pa nga lang ako e…

…And it sent Tonie laughing and crying all over the place…for days!

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Tags: apple, centipede, joke, tonie

About leading men

Kenkay:                   Ky, pakinggan mo tibok ng puso ko!

Kenkay will act as if her heart is throbbing, whispering ”Cyrus, Cyrus, Cyrus” (Mark Anthony Fernandez in KimSamSoon)

Kikay:                      Ako din Mama pakinggan mo puso ko!

Kikay will act as if her heart is throbbing, whispering ”Erebus, Erebus, Erebus” (Alfred Vargas in Dyesebel)

Kikay:                      Isa pa Mama!

Kikay will act as if her heart is throbbing, whispering ”Johnny, Johnny, Johnny” (of Johnny and the Sprites in Disney Channel)

Kikay:                      Pakinggan ko uli puso mo Mama!

Kenkay will act as if her heart is throbbing as Kikay whispers “Papa Papa Papa”.

The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother.  - Henry Ward Beecher

***Does it also hold true for a mother?***

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Memo

To:                   Parents

From:              A Child

1.   Don’t spoil me.  I know quite well that I ought not to have all I ask for.  I’m only testing you.

2.   Don’t be afraid to be firm with me.  I prefer it; it makes me feel more secure.

3.   Don’t let me form bad habits.  I have to rely on you to detect them in the early ages.

4.   Don’t make me feel smaller than I am, it only makes me behave stupidly “big”.

5.   Don’t correct me in front of people if you can’t help it.  I’ll take much more notice if you talk quietly with me in private.

6.   Don’t make me feel that my mistakes are sins.  It upsets my sense of values.

7.   Don’t protect me from consequences.  I need to learn the painful way sometimes.

8.   Don’t be upset when I say “I hate you.”  Sometimes it isn’t you that I hate but your power to thwart me.

9.   Don’t take too much notice of my small ailments.  Sometimes they get me the attention I need.

10.  Don’t nag.  If you do, I shall have to protect myself by appearing deaf.

11.  Don’t forget that I cannot explain myself as I should like to.  That is why I am not always accurate.

12.  Don’t put me off when I ask questions.  If you do, you will find that I will stop asking and seek information elsewhere.

13.  Don’t be innocent.  That completely confuses me and makes me lose faith in you.

14.  Don’t tell me my fears are silly.  They are terribly real and you can do much to reassure me if you try to understand them.

15.  Don’t even suggest that you are perfect or infallible.  It gives me too great a shock when I discover that you are neither.

16.  Don’t even think that it is beneath your dignity to apologize to me.  An honest apology makes me feel surprisingly warm toward you.

17.  Don’t forget I love experimenting.  I couldn’t get along without it.  so please put up with me.

18.  Don’t forget how quickly I am growing up.  It must be very difficult to keep pace with me, but please do try.

19.  Don’t forget that I didn’t thrive without lots of love and understanding, but I don’t need to tell you, do I.

20.  Please keep yourself fit.  I NEED YOU.

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About a text message

One night, Kikay was playing Snowboarding on my mobile when a text message arrived and she accidentally opened it.

Kikay:                      Mama, bakit ung text nya sa yo madaming smiley J?

Kenkay:                   I dunno!

Kikay:                      Siguro kse gusto ka nya maging masaya pag katext mo sya.

The text message came from someone who wishes me a beautiful life amidst the complexity of it all.

While we try to teach our children all about life, our children teach us what life is all about. - Angela Schwindt

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About a boy

During one of our late night quality time talks:

Kenkay:                  Ky, I miss ____! (name of an ex-bf I can’t get over with)

Kikay:                      E d tawagan mo sya.

Kenkay:                   But he hurt me and he doesn’t love me anymore.

Kikay:                      E d don’t call him.

The next night…

Kenkay:                  Kikay, I miss ____! (name of an ex-bf I really can’t get over with)

Kikay:                      Oh no not again, Mama! (with matching takip ng tenga at iiling iling)

Kenkay:                   But I really miss him.. but he hurt me.. he doesn’t love me anymore..

Kikay:                      Pwede ba tumigil ka na nga dyan!  pa miss miss ka pa dyan.. d ka na nga nya love e kaya kalimutan mo na sya!

Ouchie naman, ‘neng!  Break it to me gently naman!

It is not a bad thing that children should occasionally, and politely, put parents in their place. - Colette

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